5th Sun C
Christian conversion is promoted by conversation. This section is a response to and a development on the knowledge gained from the commentary section.
This Sunday's Exposition
A sense of one’s sinfulness isn’t necessarily a bad thing – so long as it is the right sense of sin. There is a sense of sinfulness in which we brood on our sins and failings, going over them and making ourselves worse for the reflection. This is like people who continually pick at their sores and thwart their healing. Maybe there is a sense of security in going over the same things, over and over again. There is another sense of sinfulness in which we honestly face our failures and admit that we have allowed evil to influence our lives. While this involves shame, it also can lead to conversion. This involves some sense of insecurity as we do not know what change repentance and conversion will bring in our lives.
But there is another sense of sinfulness that really isn’t sinful at all. It comes when we have encountered profoundly the mystery of God. Simon Peter certainly had done nothing wrong when he made that miraculous catch. Indeed he had done everything right, even in advising Jesus about the practicalities of fishing. But, in the face of such an enormous catch he is overwhelmed with awe and filled with insecurity. He misnames the experience, calling himself a sinful man. What else could he have done – what words are there for such an experience? While he may get the words wrong, his actions show that his heart understood both the miracle and the call of Jesus. He left everything and followed Jesus. The security in the depth of his heart could override the insecurity of life on the road with a strange new preacher.